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2006-07-08T00:25:00.000+08:00

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Stars are Blind

2006-07-02T00:56:00.000+08:00

Love, Joy & Laughter

Slient Departure

2006-06-28T22:19:00.000+08:00

Lunatics are scaring me.
Stop singing you. I'm bursting into laughter.

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Yah, you're leading such a "high-end" life.
Yah, you're so classy.
Yah, you're so branded.
Yah, you're so "ang-moh".

Eeyer..

Go and die lah. DIAO. Ugly Duckling.
Buay Tahan.

HAPPY HOURS

2006-06-27T16:49:00.000+08:00

I've long awaited for this HOLIDAY. Ha.
But it seemed like.. so boring sia.

Sighs. I miss my ex-class. chickennabei.

how deep is your love?

2006-06-27T16:27:00.000+08:00

KEWPIE

2006-06-27T16:26:00.001+08:00

BOYFRIEND GIRLFRIEND

2006-06-27T16:26:00.000+08:00

BETTY BOP'S BOYFRIEND, BIMBO

SEVEN DWARFS

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2006-06-27T16:23:00.000+08:00

ALICE-SNOW WHITE-CINDERELLA-ANNETTE

PINNO

2006-06-27T16:21:00.000+08:00

2006-06-27T16:20:00.000+08:00

FAR RIGHT- DOPEY!

BETTY BOP

2006-06-27T16:19:00.001+08:00

DARKIE

2006-06-27T16:19:00.000+08:00

DARKIE TOOTHPASTE

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SUPERMAN

2006-06-27T16:15:00.000+08:00

KEWPIE & FRIENDS

2006-06-27T16:14:00.000+08:00

ASTRO BOY
damn fat last time.

2006-06-27T16:13:00.000+08:00

TIN TIN & BADDIES

2006-06-27T16:12:00.000+08:00

POPEYE

I LOVE DOPEY!

2006-06-25T01:18:00.000+08:00

NA BEI PHOTOS, cannot upload.
UPLOAD tmr!

YAY! Today was FUNFUNFUN-FUN lah.
So proud of Renne to be able to make it for LaSelle. Happy for her seh =)

After godzillion years, I finally met up with Renee.
So happy also.
Many more meetings with Renee. YAY!
TOY FACTORY was so kiddy. I like.
DOPEY!!
My dopey-luck. HEES!

I would love to love you. You make me so happy.

TOY FACTORY

2006-06-25T00:57:00.000+08:00

MICKEY & MINNIE

TOY MUSEUM

Location: 26 Seah road
Entry fee: 10 bucks

If you love TOYS, you should go. If you dont, might as well not. Bcus, half of the toys exist in the 1980s? I dont even know who the hell they are.

Buttcheeks.

2006-06-23T16:00:00.000+08:00

End-term Tests are OVER!! LOL. Except for Physics & Mathematics paper. But these two papers are just BULL-SHITS. So, nevermind.
This end-term examination just come at the wrong time. sighs.

UFOOOOO!!!

HOLIDAYS! YAY!

I'm feeling SO happy. I want to see you REAL SOON!
Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, FRIDAY!!

attention-seeker. Goodbye and get lost.

I havent been handling the people I meet & the friends I make well. Sometimes I question..Does the problem lies with Human A or me?
Sighs.
I just seem to be finding faults and talking to my BEST-est[BEST FRIEND hor. Mia siao siao. =)] friend about it.And well, I find myself passing crude remarks at Human A.
(P/s: Human A does not refer to a particular someone. It refers to those of this KNS species.)
Erm. Crude remarks. Of course, not calling them bitch or something. I'm not that mean though. Just "bitching" to my Bestest Friend about it. So shiok after that.
Sighs.
I havent been keeping quiet about it, like what the last-time-bev would do. Ha. Think I buay tahan.
And when that happens, I would stun myself from Human A. Automatically.
Then.. Friends -> Strangers.
I should teach myself to be faker.
Spoiling a friendship is not very nice eh.
Bevy, Bevy. Tsk.tsk.tsk.
I'm still a very nice person. Yay.

YAY! 5pm! Food's here. My mama gave up on us and ordered home delivery for us. Every weekends. LOL. Save her the trouble of grocery-shopping. I think my mama's getting cuter each day. She always does and says weird stuff. Like, your fingers long liao hor? LOL. Fhoooo! MAKAN!

Kidney beans

2006-06-19T11:59:00.000+08:00

Sighs. Biology, sure fail. Chemistry, sure fail. fark.

Anatomy test up next.

I'm so deprived of social life. Disappointments.
I'm starting to miss Secondary School once more. CCAs, dumb-dumb programmes, lovely teachers. Sighs. kuku lecturers. eee.

I cant wait for June to be over. July to be over. August to be over. September to be over. October to be over. November to be over. And, December to come.

Happy Birthday, no more. It's a lie if you tell me you'll be waiting for my Happy Birthday. Somehow, my instincts tell me not to text you Happy Birthday. Hah. Tat's so silly. I dont want to make anyone go mad about it. But still, I wish it was a Happy Birthday for you. Happy for you. =))))

Pressed for time

2006-06-17T23:05:00.000+08:00

I've got to confess for not studying for end-term test. fuck.
I jus pray I could scrape through everything and not re-module. Re-module for each subject is $800. FUCK. This school enjoys cheating our money. Buay tahan.

Hardgay, Hardgay.. I spent my entire afternoon watching Hard Gay on YouTube. Haa.
Fhoooooo!

21st June'06 my kuku-brained school organising FUNFAIR. Cheat our money again. Nevermind, I shall see to what extent it's FUN. YAY! Funfair with ChangJin! Fhooooo!!

Fhooooooooo!!!! I pray-pray Black win soccer. She win, I jiu HO-SEH liao. Fhooooo! Soccer fever eh? HAHAH. Money, money, money.

BIRTHDAY. Should I, should I not?

2006-06-16T16:25:00.000+08:00

Hard Gay- Ramen Shop

Acne, acne go away!!

2006-06-16T15:31:00.000+08:00

School hasnt been any better than having ChangJin in the saame school as me!! And it's fucking great lah! Yay!! Bus rides together!!

I'm so happy, Shitto!

HARD GAY. Fhoooo!! ChangJin, I love him too!! Fooooo!!! LOL!

Say, say, say! I want his toys too! His tees!

I LOVE HARD GAY tee! LOL.

I heard his toys are selling for US$50 on Ebay. Gosh.

Biology end term exam was ()*@(&^$%$. I'm gonna fail. F-it. Fhooo!!

But still, everyday in school is a H-A-P-P-Y day!

Lemon Tree, Lemonade

YYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

Fame, popularity & money, and perhaps unique-ness, has drove certain indivduals into insanity.

Gosh..Girl, you're trying too hard.

Your yearning has turned into Greed.

Sometimes I would convince myself that I would never be affected by anyone's words or critics. But somehow, I was wrong.

It does make me feel uneasy and... Just weird feelings.

And I would say of it as very "disturbing".

And yes, lower my self-esteem.

I wished I could shoo you away from my life.

Stop treating me like a mannequin and give me head-to-toes stares.

I feel like I'm undergoing your top 10 "NO-NOs" dressing checklist marking.

I feel weird okay, you littlebabikukunehnehchickennabei-faced.

Let littlebabikukunehnehchickennabei-faced VANISH!

BTW, I noticed certain people's clothes have got a very nice smell. Not fragrance. It's nice smell.

And my classmates said it's due to something called "Softener".

Is it, is it?? I want nice nice smell too! HAHAHA!

Pretence - Your Middle Name.

2006-06-16T01:02:00.000+08:00

A letter to a Friend.

My best-est friend?
Maybe she's my best-est friend all along. Ha.
Best-est friend seh.

I've got a bad feeling about my End-Term examinations.
I'm dead.

Squirt Oil. *psst, psst*

2006-06-12T21:33:00.000+08:00

I promise to study tomorrow. Sighs. Where's my motivation??

Biology is such a lullaby. Sickening.

I walked to Boonkeng with kopi for fun.. Then, walk home. I wanted to buy strawberry cream cake one, you know. That hairy shit Kopi lah. Make me dont dare go in the Bakery. And I bought one Sunkist Orange Juice and one Peelfresh Orange Juice. WHAHAHAAHAHAHAH! Will tell you which taste better.

I think I'm somewhat insane lah. Duh..

Moulmein High 3 is BACK!! But change cast liao. What the ****...

"Gundoo" hairstylar. I want.

Rock till you Drop, TomatoHeads

2006-06-12T02:27:00.000+08:00

"Adult world"- I don't understand.
Last night was whoo-lah-lah! Sweats, aches, grooves. Somehow, I dont really like it. Those eeky men. But still , I enjoyed. When the song "Hips dont lie" plays, I thought I'm gonna die from the high-ness. Whatever it is, I slept all the way till 5pm the nezt day. I'm dead tired I swear. And there goes my Super Sunday. I'm fuck guilty.
I saw lemon tree boy. What coincidences. I think he's cute. HEE.

That's Supercalifragilisticexpialidoceous!

Fuck maplecreators&"extreme"addicts.You can come smell my poo, nehnehpok-faced.
She hogs onto the damn com and never gets enough. Diao. Big waste of time on kuku games. Maybe I dont understand. Yes, I dont. The game was like the whole world to you. And you're SO "devoted" to a game. How foolish, you tell me.
I was once "addicted". But my addiction will never last for more than 6months. HAHAHA. My Da Chang Jin Addiction.
Sometimes I would think of you as my younger sister. Your thinking, your life..Even your temper. Fancy getting annoyed being nagged for playing your dumb game 24/7. C'mon, just shut the damn game and do something else can. Diao-ness. There's so much you would have achieved and be committed to at your age. Yet each day is spent meaningless stuffs. Like, GAMING. That's so GAY-ish. And of all things, you commit youself to a GAME? Gosh.. I just pray that one day..the damn game will just vanish. For God's sake, let the game VANISH!

Okay, I miss my fucking dog. I'm gonna go orh-orh with the fattest dog in the entire galaxy. She listens. And I'm so proud of her. SHE's EXTREMELY CUTE LAH.

Study break = STUDY

2006-06-09T14:46:00.000+08:00

I'm on an imprisonment for 1 week. Except for this coming SATURDAY and wednesday.
End of term examinations. Great!

For once, I made myself decline my mates's offer to the mall or chill-out session.

my mates in poly are enjoying their shiok holidays.. And I've got to mug. So not fair. Hah.

Okay. I've gotta finished by my biology coursework & physics lab practical report today. WTF!

Beverly-Sarah,
NO telly
NO chill out
NO shopping-mall-going
NO nonsense-doing
NO <>
NO excessive blogging
NO distractions
Just muglikefuck, enough said.

I've got to do well for my coming end-of-term exams commercring next FRIDAY. Corrections, I must do EXCEPTIONALLY WELL. Bcus my classmates are fcuking hardworking monsters. Or otherwise, smart ass who easily ace their exams.

My monsterous friends are probably up at 9am and have started their revision. But me?!! I wake up at 1pm and have got so many things else, except hw, to do. My monsterous mates dont have an addiction for Da Chang Jin and all other tv shows, but I do. 10pm-11pm goes to my favourite tv show - DA CHANG JIN. An hour taken away from studies. Sighs. I think its good to get some stress to wake me up. Pimple-outbreak.. My instinct tells me so.

This entire week has been fcuked-up. God knows what happened to my darn hp alarm. Of all times, it wouldnt wake me up at the time I'm supposed to get up for school. And yes, I was late for the entire week. Practically late for the first half session of morning lectures, or even worse the entire morning lecture. F-it.

My classmate's 5 years old pooch just passed away SUDDENLY. And, it's freaking me out. If Kopi's ever gonna kick the bucket, I'll just kick mine too. LOL. Anyway, it's REALLY FREAKING ME OUT!

I'm gonna love you, Saturday. HAHA. That's my mum's place.

SNAPS, SNAPS.. Beverly-sarah, please wake up and go start on your revision!!

Flower Plucker

2006-06-06T02:54:00.000+08:00

Hi, I'm Sarah and I loves to pluck flowers.

Cherry's attempt to plant those pretty flowers have failed.
Thus, I made the second attempt. I looking forward to a beautiful garden. Hah.
Today was hilarious.. To re-plant the entire plant, I've got to extract the plant and its root. So, I stretch my hands and hold firmly to the stem. Before I knew it, My shuttle bus has come. With the entire plant of my hand, I just ran to board the bus. Gosh, I actually ran... I hope Moulmein High boy didnt catch me doing so.

I realised I'm always the one doing nonsense with my friends.

When I was much younger, I burn the green dustbin in the neighbourhood.
I press doorbells.
Throw firecrackers into the bushes and it caught on fire.
Throw lit up matchsticks into letter boxes.
Write rubbish and mail to strangers.
Prank call.
I throw idiots slippers down.
I remove their pegs from their laundry.
I play with candles at the playground.
I burn lanterns.
I doodle on walls.
Bringing pins and needles going around puncturing people's bicycle tyre.
Calling people mad when I'm ever madder. (the lunatic duo in my block)
Kope crystals from those cheena antique store. (They Stink!)
ERM, throw stones at cats =X
And, throw bomb-bags from 14th storey. WTF.

So much for a wonderous childhood. It's great pleasure. But it wouldnt have been possible with my accomplices. I miss it.

Now, I pluck flowers. For myself and my friends. HAHAHA.

All in the name of "Thrilll".

I'm still a kid in the heart. The entire world have got to pardon me.
SO DUMB!

Ballon Fest At Sentosa

2006-06-06T01:55:00.000+08:00

I LOVE THIS BEST! Sexay Pillars. Whoo-lah-lah!

I think I love this shot.

I love this too!

I think this is funny.
Mel: Leaning on the pillar. Trembles. Close to peeing on pants.
BeverlySarah: Eh, Dont scare lah. I holding on to the pillar right?
WHAHAHAHA!

I'm just kidding. So FARNI!

Melissa, I'm still hating you for lying to me! Ballon Fest... My foot! Choir performance lor. Cheat my feelings. Sad.. HAHAHAHA! Sentosa next time.. After my exams =Pppp

Balloon Festiival at Sentosa

2006-06-05T01:30:00.000+08:00

Bullshit! Balloon Festival??! Sighs. I'm CHEATED by MELISSA liarliar again. Yes, AGAIN..I dont care. I was so looking forward to grab tonnes of balloons on my hands. And cute balloon hats sitting on my puny brainass head. And POOF! What I've got? No balloons. nehneh! And Mel consoles me saying she'll make poodle balloons for me. That's not the point! I'm so sad. So sad. But still, I took several awesome photos. As in, AWESOME to me. HAHAHA. Yes, and I've got a new boyfriend- Marcus Lim. LOL. That's melissa's brother. I think he loves me for my nonsense. "Show me your love" song. Whatever.

F-up pictures wouldnt load. F-it.

My organiser is so packed, yet all I do is run out and do everything else but work. I've got a nutsy thinking up my puny brain.

Okay lah F-it. I gotta sleep NOW! I'm gonna be late for class AGAIN tmr.

Tonight, you can fuck off from me

2006-06-04T00:16:00.000+08:00

Beverly, you're a Best Buddy

Need help figuring out which shoes look cuter with which outfit? You're the girl to call. Friendships are top priority in your list of things to do — you check in regularly, hang out all the time, and you probably never get tired of your closest pals. So when someone is heading to the hair salon for a big cut, you'll go and hold their hand. Heck, you'll even pitch in for the dull stuff — like scary appointments to get braces. No matter what you and your friends are up to, you're in it for the long haul. Your specialty is putting the needs of others over your own. Best part is, your friends make sure to do the same.
http://web.tickle.com/tests/friendkind/result.jsp

HAHAHA! I'm your BEST BUDDY! LOL.

I'm busy doing nothing today.
Once again, I went for my monthly date with my dentist. AND, I feel like shyt now. Everything's straight. But that bottom teeth wouldnt get straightened. Fuck lah. And I've put forward my date with the dentist to the last week of this month. Sigh. PAIN!! VERY PAIN! I'm superultra hungry, yet I couldnt bite. Fuck.

Sucker kopi broke my rainbow spectacle. Thanks so much, darling. Argh. I was merely lying on my bed resting for a minute. And I stupidly placed my spect beside me. And fatty kopi dashed over. Jumped over me, and ended on my rainbow spectacles. And it just broke the damn plastic. So, it's gonecase to rainbow. Sighs. Why did i bring a fat dog home?!! She damn fat sia. Now, I've got no spare spectacles. WTF. Gotta tie rubber band liao. LOL!!!!

9more days to ChangJin joining me! So HAPPY lah!

I cant believe this. You're eek. Get away from me!

Play pretend

2006-06-01T19:30:00.000+08:00

Moulmein boy was at gym today. Which is erm, directly opposite my class. Woot!!
Boys at gym wave back and show us their biceps. LOL! What tiny mousey you have.Eek!

I'm tired of putting on that mask.
Is it really true that after hanging out with someone over a period of time, we would see their flaws? I guess so.

In this world, the people I meet are categorized into..
People I can click.
People I can put up with.
People I really detest.
People I can never be friends with.
People I cant hang out with individually.

Of all 3946237842 people I meet, I guess only 2-3 ends up as my mate I really loved.
What's wrong with me? Hahaha. What's wrong with you people?

And the people I can click would be only one type of people..
The Simple Perfect Ones.
No excessive gossipping or bitching. Just enjoying each other's company bull-shitting.

And people who I'll never be mates with would be..
Those who bitch too much, talked too much, bear a mouthful of critics and bad-mouth ALOT. People who asks TOO MUCH. And of course, competitive ones.
I dont like their existence in my life. And most of the times, I do not reckon that they exist in this world and shut them from my life.

Sometimes, when ~~you~~ I bitch with someone..I'll learn about the character of these people judging from what they bitch. Worst still, bitching about my own mates. Maybe I think too much. Hah. I cant bitch. I get influenced very easily. Hah.

People I really detest..
BRAG QUEENS. Stuck up assholes. Plenty.

Sighs. Thats why I'm such a loner all my life. Hah.
Giggles. Giggles. Giggles.

Digging up my mama's closet

Fondue-love

2006-06-01T19:06:00.000+08:00

"Everytime we touch" song. LOL.

2006-05-28T22:44:00.000+08:00

Too sweet to be true. Fondue-love.

I'm out for this entire weekend. And eventually, I only managed to type a few lines for my assignmentSSSS. So, I'm so dead and I can fuck these shit, spending my following weekdays rushing reports. So much for last minute work. So much left undone. Fuck, Sarah.

Everytime we touch, I get this feeling. Mel, what's the next line?

Sarah Beverly

BEVERLY Call me, Sarah.

2006-05-27T22:56:00.000+08:00

Hello, I'm Sarah.

Of all times, I forgot to charge my camy on my KOPIO darling BDAE! I'm so sad. SIGHS.

Some cab drivers wouldnt drive my KOPIO. Scare my KOPIO pee & poo in your cab huh. Dont like them. You kukunehnehs, whole life wont struck lottery I tell you.

Bringing KOPIO out is such a chore. She cant walk by herself. She's F heavy. ROARS.

KOPIO dont like other dogs. She likes to scold them.

KOPIO trimmed her nails. Her nehneh botak liao. So cute.

Long haired chihuahua so tiny. I'm so tempted to bring another puppy home. Hehe.

GREAT SG SALES was nothing. So boring.

Okays, Happy 2nd Birthday KOPIO! MWACKMWACKMWACK!

watertank melissa,
Everytime we meet, you'll leave early. When I ask to stay, you'd say No Way.

MEL: HAHAHA! I nvr knew I could write lyrics. LOL! Next time, esplanade ahemahem hor.. No more going home!

BDAE PARTY

2006-05-26T02:12:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KOPIO! Heh.

I wished we were more than friends.
I'm lying.

Stressed, whatelse?

2006-05-24T22:50:00.000+08:00

Tmr's is my last mid-term paper. I failed genetics. I'm very sad lah, NABEI! I cant fail, I CANT nehneh!!

I practically went nutsy yesterday. Like, lunatic?
Okay, stop pissing me off you faggots. I peeing at you I'm telling you. Right now, sucker. I'm gonna stuff poo into your eyeballs you nehneh. I'll scrap off your layers of epithelium tissues and scrap and scrap. ARGH! I'm very pissed by pissmeoff people. You abnormal fucker.ROARS. I want to slap your greasy face. I slap, slap, slap!

1 week without DA CHANG JIN. I'm depressed.

I dont like school. I'm super depressed. It's killing me softly.

I need a birthday wish now. Ha. Use Kopi's one. HEH HEH HEH.

Happy belated B'DAE to EU NICE! LOL.

Oh, TWO DAYS to my KOPIO's BDAE!
So happy lah! HOHOHO!

Three more days to KOPI's b'dae! HEH!

2006-05-23T19:27:00.000+08:00

I slept 15hours last night. WOOT!

I saw Moulmein High guy after his 12days of MIA. Whatever.
My school loadsa lesbo. Ha. Darn loads.

Brina, Bev, Cherry, Shalalalala

A cockroach just ran past and escaped.
I gotta do my essay now. BBB(ahem, mh.)!

Sweet dreams, Go and Die.

2006-05-21T03:24:00.000+08:00

Okay, I'm gonna sleep now.
Sadly, I didnt finish studying for Genetics Test as promised. SAD!
BUT, I stayed up for 3hours, as promised.
And, I completed 3/4 of Genetics Presentation, 1/4 of Anatomy Coursework 2. And bits of preparation work for Genetics test. I'm so dead. Somebody just kill me please.
SIGHS. I'm off to bed and I wish I could die in my sleep so that I wont have to finish up anything assignment.
Let me die, Please.
FUCK THIS SHIT!

PARTY

2006-05-20T22:23:00.000+08:00

I'm DEAD! SO DEAD! I hate to but i've got to.. ADMIT to not completing any of my work today. I read approximately 2chpts of Genetics. And guess what.. I took my stuffs & the leash & off I go. Gaigai(walkwalk man!) with my dog. Today was a great stroll with Fatdog. HAHAHA. Dont reprimand me already!! I bet Cherry is and she'll kill me with her chantings on Monday. Gosh. Okay, there's a major distraction that's why. My inconsiderate pigu sis was laughing like mad with her diao friend. And it's damn loud. And their laughter were hilarious. Like, WTF lah. And the laughter forced my brain to stop functioning, and that's when I know I've gotta leave the house. DIAO.

Back to Fatdog..HAHAHA. she very naughty. she like to smell pee & poo. And, half of the time, I'm carrying her. Cus she cannot walk properly. And she stops to smell pee & poo. and she's wasting my damn time looking at her smell pee & poo. I suspect she's blind. AND, she's damn blardy heavy. that's all. I still love her. she's very cute. she've got 8 nipples. whoolala.

School has been as horrid as usual. Except that I've finally know all my classmates. And I'm so happy lah. Next, I'm gonna get to know xxxxx, xxxx & xx.... whakakaka. No lah. So sicked with canteen. PUKES!!!!

SIX MORE SEXY DAYS TO MY KOPIO'S TWO YEARS OLD BIRTHDAY! which is like, next FRIDAY!!! Countdown, countdown. She's turning TWO! I'M SO EXCITED ABOUT IT! I'm gettin her a birthday cake, with candles of course. HAHAH! you wont understand why I'm so happy. argh.

I'm gonna start on my work NOW! I swear I'll finish studying for Genetics Test before I go to bed. And probably I'll only be in bed at 2am? Gosh. How does that sound, CHERRY! PLEASE dont nag at me!!! Melissa, I thought I would be stress-free without you around. But guess I'm wrong. LOL. Okay lah, I know it's for a good intention.

DX's birthday Tomorrow. For once, I remember my mate's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LUCY! Wish you, nian nian you jin ri whatever. LOL.

[MULDER AND SCULLY]

Kingkongsaurous

2006-05-18T17:45:00.000+08:00

18th May 2006, Thursday, Sunny

Today, I had Biology mid-term test. The day before, I had Chemistry mid-term test. Well, I'm gonna flunk it like shit. I just pray hard that I can pass it. Fuckfuckfuck.

I've been hanging out a lot with kuku-brained cum pea-brained. Like, superduperultrasonic loads lar. canteen, toilet, classroom, wherever.Yah, my new friend. Ha. And it's madness. Like, duhz. Like, diao.. LOL. And blabbering nonsense with Bigbear. And my name ranges from kingkongsaurous to Smallbear. Yeah, back to square one- A Bear. Like, duh. HAHAH. Okay lar, everything has been crazy thats all. And with kuku-brained, we made friends with other kukubrained. Everyone is known as kukubrained to me. My new friends name are so kawaii la.
Here:
Mickey. Tommy cum TangNi. Johnny. ZengZheng[BOY!] cum zhenzhen jiajia, jiajiazhengzheng. LOL.Okay lar. I've been super lame & made kukubrains laugh like mad. If I'm not wrong, my class got one Sun & one Moon. weird weird one. BigBear tot my name was Beverly Khan. Like, diao lar.

Day 6 of not getting to see Moulmein High boy. Like, diao.

Physics lab practical was gorgeous today.

Remember my lecturers was strong indian accent? Yeap, our class sorta complained him. And today, two "invigilators" came over to attend our lesson. Well, can tell that he's trying to teach la. Partially, it's our fault for not paying attention to his strong accent. So, we're pretty bad lar. You can never please everyone right. And we cant expect him to correct his indian accent for us right. Well, today was great! Love, Dr Anwar & his BlingBling gold watch!

Sicked of puny canteen. Went Queensway Shopping Centre. Yo man! Kukubrained & her Macdonalds. And, her Mc Spicy. Like, diao.

I wanna cut my hair liao. Big Hair. Ha.
[La Bamba]

I go study le. MUACKMUACKMUACK!!

Enough of Lab reports & Presentations

2006-05-15T14:43:00.000+08:00

15th May 2006, Monday

Burn those kuku-nehneh lecture notes.

School is nothing like shiok. I'm hating school & everything else related to it. Heavy books. Lab reports. Puny canteen. I'm bored with the school. Late nights rushing reports. Depriving me of social life & nap time. No ATM. Moulmein High guy hasnt been to school. it's pissing me off.

Okays. It's making me so mad, especially mid-term examination has begun. Shortly a month in school, MID-TERM TESTs!! Can you believe or not..

Anyway, today is a short day. One Genetics tutorial, that's all.

Anyway, MRT ride to & fro from school was horrid! Their grassland has grown into a forest. And it's peeking out of their sleeve. I feel like puking. LOL. Morning crowd was terrible. His briefcase is poking my butt. And when she flings her stinko hair, it slapped my face. EEk eeKK EEk! Plus, I'm never punctual for classes. KUKU shit.

Time & again, days after days, weekends after weekends, I'm opening & shutting the damn Powerpoint & Microsoft Word. Tell me, tell me, when will I ever be free from typing reports after reports, essay after essay. Tell me, you kuku-brained!

Okay, gotta do my darn reports & bibilography of this kuku researcher.

2006-05-12T12:33:00.000+08:00

12th May 2006, Friday, Vesak Day, Sunny-side-up

Last night's gathering was SHIOK MAN! I'm so deprived of entertainment. Pool & madness++++ arcade! The samurai game was so HEHEHE-Hilarious! DDR, mentos-grabbing & Daytona. HAHA. I want MADNESS!! I wanna jump, jump, jump! It's so nice to walk together as a BIG grp. LOL. Except for the boys wanting to play lan part.. Wah lau. I never knew their addiction for lan-gaming was so strong. Oh dear. ChangJin has a unique style. I call it, ex-convict style. Or maybe, ex-hougang chalet permanent resident style. His sexy moustache, tiny bag & donkey-striped hair. LOL.I love it!

MORE GATHERINGs!!

Gotta finish up my lovely essays & lab reports. NABEI BEI BEI BEI!!

When kopi barks, her centre portion hair will stand one. SO CUTE! Today pom pom for her. HOHOHO.

Another new friend found

2006-05-10T17:50:00.000+08:00

I LOVE these, cus cannot see my face.
WAH SEH. SNOW leh. I know this is STEWPID.
SHA, BEV & CHERRY.

10th May 2006, Wednesday

Yesterday, I found out Superman's laptop has got a webcam attached to it. SO.. We took many photos in our lecture class. Share, share a bit show you.

I met new friend -DVD; Big Bear. YAY!

School was fcuking great today. Like, amazing lah. I kept playing with my new friend & he's like so fun! And, I'm gonna play his laptop tomorrow during my 2hrs break. Racing man..Hurray! Okay, I practically learnt erm.. nothing much today. Because my mates kept yakking. Yakking about their boyfriends & cakes. I think I heard Muthu's Curry too. BOYFRIENDS! ROARS. Cheryl, wait till I get that Moulmein High guy.. I'll yak about my BOYFRIEND!

My school got one WAH PI KONG(dig nose) GUY. LOL. But I'm disgusted this time la. Cus, he touch his GF's hand after he WAH PI KONG!

I so love Anatomy.

DARLING SECONDARY SCHOOL MATES! Gathering is TOMORROW! Movies & Arcade. LOL. Arcade.. AND, AND, AND.. My term break in JULY. Guess you guys de term break is JUNE. NABEI! ANYWAY, find a weekend during JULY to go LIM CHOA KANG's GOAT FARM can or not? I want go see YANG MEH MEH...Steady okay???

I've taken action. I wrote a "peaceful treaty" to my CB neighbour. Typed-out. Well, I practically asked him to STOP DRILLING! Drill somemore and I'll hammer down your CB door.

MADNESS

2006-05-07T17:40:00.000+08:00

7th May 2006, Sunday. MADNESS.
Finally, a day off from school.Happy lah!

I've just finish up one of my MANY essays. YAY!

~~Genetic Testing Essay~~ DONE
Anatomy;Adipose Tissue Essay Partially complete
Anatomy Test Bits & pieces of revision done

I'm left with approximately 5hrs to complete my revision. Mission impossible. My brain is dried up man. During the weekends, my mind is constantly remindly me to revise my work & do my essay. But practically, I'm holding my book & chips + ice-cream stoning in front of the telly. Haiya, I cant resist munching & telly. FULL-STOP. And, and. I must watch the elections mah. HAHA.

I read my Anatomy notes til I tear. ROARS!!!!!

I'm so dead. Deadline is nxt Monday & nxt wed respectively. So dead.

I've been busy feeding my printer with papers & making them puke black & coloured juice onto my papers. Thanks to my dear school for printing only Black & White lecture notes for me. C'mon la. All I see is a patch of black shit on my lecture notes man! Waste my time & money to print my notes AGAIN, IN COLOURS!

I want to do Veterinary science. I cant believe there's no Faculty of Veterinary science in Sg. Damn it. I cannot imagine myself as a chemist, biologist or researcher. This is so wrong! So damn wrong!STUPIDSTUPIDSTUPID!

Can my fcuked-up neighbours SHUT THEIR ASS UP and speak softly! You're making my dog bark & bark you know.NABEI. Dont make me steal your undies okay. I throw all your slippers downstairs ah! Dont ever know what the fuck you guys are doing. Everyday also got weird people going to your place. Scully.. illegal brothel. HAHA. I must do something. LOL.

Weekends! YAY!

2006-05-05T23:43:00.000+08:00

I've taken the time to go to the mart with my mum. Okay, gathering was as usual. For once, I'm present. Still miss secondary school days.

I think I saw something ghostly red.

Lab practical was BRILLIANT!

Blog again. So busy.

Mysterious.

Hung myself to death

2006-05-04T21:54:00.000+08:00

School was MADNESS! I find myself back during the O levels preparation months. Abnormalities, insomnia, mood swings, crazy appetite.

Assignments, tests, reports. 2weeks deadline. You're killing me softly with your hw, those hw... LOL.

Okay. Everything single shit in school is getting on my nerves. Take note: Nerve Tissues. Strong india lecturer's accent. Unexplained lab practicals. Miscommunication. Black & White notes. Worst still, black & white diagrams & illustrations. Oh gosh, like that how to differentiate where is where.. One big patch of unknown black shit. How to see?! Stingy!

If you continue to blabber what you're unsure about, people will doubt your credibility. It's okay to say you dont know. Sorry, but I'm doubting your words. Afterall, it all seems too good to be true. Like, diao.. I wouldnt say you're bull-shitting though. Have a limit. I'm not always so patient to entertain your bullshits. I'm kind enough to sit there & listen instead of questioning you with all my doubts okay. Later you pai seh only..C'mon, I'm NOT impressed la. Dont brag ley. People dont stick to you just because you tell fanastic stories. (I see your potential as a scriptwriter.) Show it if you're really oh-so-capable of what you said yourself to be. Your weekend driver? Yah right.. My foot. I got weekend ah-sam(maid), make-up artist, nanny, personal assistant & bodyguards. You believe meh? DIAO. And, why weekend driver arh? Make it weekdays+weekends driver la. Not enought money pay for the wages huh. HAHAHA. I should accept it. [edited]

I'm not trying to be mean lar. But, I SO FUCKING DESPISED THIS KINDA OF BRAG-QUEENS. Lie & lie. Cock & cock. Crazy. Look down on you man. WTH..

Okay, I've had enough said. SHIOK!! Tomorrow I'm gonna hear more incredible tales. HAHAHA.

You bad-mouthed her, yet you befriended her. DIAO.

2006-05-01T23:19:00.000+08:00

1st May 2006 (Psst, heard the bells that ring at 12noon sharp? That spells the start of each month. AND, I love those bells.) Monday- LABOUR DAY (Double Pay Day)

I wished I could exclaim! I'm HAPPY today.

I just didnt do my work, as expected. I asked BJ girl- Melissa out as usual. To the library though. BUT, today Labour Day arh. HEES. So i found myself very busy in the mall. Nothing's pretty. Pretty are expensive. Nett price items are making me so mad. I cant wait for Great Singapore Sales. I'm training to scan, grab & pay for all the S-sized items.

BJ Girl is very obsessed with DA CHANG JIN. I cannot stand her. She & her Lee Young Ae rubbish. And Lady Han as well. SMS-ing me that she's upset that Lady Han's gonna die in this episode. MAD-NESS! Okay lar Mel. I enjoy boxing you. And pointing __ during our shots. Saturday huh.

Sorry, but I'm REALLY excited about the upcoming Partay. It's been a long time since I had much fun. I need a break. Even if it means hangover for nxt morning's lecture or dozing off during lectures. It means nothing. I cant resist. For other clubs, I dont give a damn. This club spells "FUN"! YAY!!

No more slavery for Bevy

2006-04-30T23:32:00.000+08:00

30th April 2006, Sunday, Sunny I suppose

Last day of work at X:ODUSSY. I will miss IT. Colleagues, Tiny storeroom, money counting, irritating customers, stinky feets, dusty boxes, telephone call, stock check.. Sighs. I used up my last staff purchase in loving memory of X:ODUSSY> Yah, I'm acting like a crazyaboutwork arse. Whatever la.

Blog again..

SELFISH FUCKER!
I've to quit doing my essay just because you wanted to play Maple? I dont see the point cheebye!

Come to me, I cure.

2006-04-30T00:00:00.000+08:00

29th April 2006, Saturday the SAT--THE--DAY!, [weather: no idea]e

I was in the mall- WORKING. Today was supposed to be the last day of my slavery. But I'm a very nice employee. So I promised to work tmr, for one of my colleagues is on MC. I'm very kind okay. I've got tonnes of assignments waiting for me. And I've got to read my notes beforehand okay. Otherwise, I'll learn shit from lectures. Sighs.

Okay, a kid fell off the(one seater sofa-you know what it's called?)laughing. Very funny. You should have seen the dramatic change of his facial expression. A minute ago, he was laughing till I couldnt see his eyes. Another minute, he laid flat on the floor crying. His mum asked him how he fell. I really felt like laughing thinking he fell off the chair laughing. Ha. Clumsy kid.

I'm so glad it's a weekend. I'm hating the journey to school. Morning crowd. You piss me off kukus. FUCK!

Superficial- That's the word. I dont know what's wrong with me. But I'm pretty negative about everything. I just dont like pretence. Those girls are pissing me off. Gu-Niangs! Whatever. No worries mates, I still love all of you.

Okay, time for bed. adieu.

I'm feeling myself again. Those are not made for me. Happy for you, Beverly.

Holland, Holland, I LOVE YOU!

2006-04-28T19:50:00.000+08:00

Holland Village was a pretty place with pretty things. AND, PRETTY FOOD! Yes, pretty people. Now i know what is the 2hrs break is for. YAY!

My new classmate is on a strict diet. No laksa, no fats. Jogging. And it's making me guilty from all my gorging sessions. Oh, BLACK, I need you badly! Let's gorge man!

I dont like lectures.

Dental appointment today. YAY! Tighten, tighten. That's all.
It was really painful. The dentist had one of his fingers in my mouth while he tightens with KINGKONG pliers. So, I clutched my teeth throughout the torment. After the pain goes away, I realised I was biting on to my dentist's finger. HAHAHAHA! Funny okay.

AW, my teeth is blardy pain from the tightening okay. PAIN.

DA CHANG JIN is my favourite show man!

WOW! Story-teller seh. I salute you. But please, spare my ears. Maybe it's the truth, BUT it's too good to be true. I'm not believing what's coming out from your mouth. Eekk.

Telly, telly! Yay.

Red blood cells.

2006-04-24T18:32:00.000+08:00

24th April 2006, Monday, Rainy ~

I feel like screaming, "I LOVE YOU!"

Today was jus another unlucky days I'm caught in the rain. And I felt like a na bei chee bye. (excuse me) But this indian lady made it all beautiful for me. I was standing in the shelter doing nothing, just like everyone else. Waiting for the rain to stop. I waited & waited, God knows for what. And about 10mins, a kind soul actually offered to shelter me over to the blocks. Aww. So sweet. And it was such a erm.. surprise? You dont expect people to share their brolly with you right. Cus everyone were like, "neh ni neh ni poo poo. Pathetic shit, lucky I got brolly. Byeeeee." And anyways, this lady sheltered me all the way to my block. And coincidentaly, she stays in the same block as me. Okay lar. No one understands.But tiny actions really means alot. Touched. Happy!

YAY! Gym during break with my new mates. YAY YAY YAY! I didnt really worked out. Just practically tried out all the "muscle building machines" there. I'm afraid of biceps so I sticked to the running one la.(whatever it's called la CB.) YAY!

Oh, oh, oh. My Kopi honey started her menstruation. So sad can. No flurry lil shit pei me sleep. She sleeps in her "kennel" (newspapers la. And a doormat.) So lonely. Sayang so sad. HAIS. 10 days leh. Cannot run around also. poor shit. MUACKS! Okay, next month is her birthday. YAY!

Lectures. STRESSED, The End.

You dont have to be pretty to do pretty things. Love you, UGLY.

Doctor Love

2006-04-21T21:25:00.000+08:00

My new cheena classmate asked me,"Which part of China are you from?"

Diao.I never knew I looked like a cheena.
My classmates are just SOO cute. Ha.

Cheryl, never tag my board. Yeah. Only 5th day of school and Cupid's arrows are flying all over. AND! I sat in between the lovebirds! Gotta wear many many sweaters.

I think I'm a lil too noisy with my new mates. Ha. Ribena lor. Hai wo. High sugar content leads to me being hyperactive lor.

I've also got my Orange, who snores loudly during Genetics lecture. HAHAHA. Everyone was laughing like mad can.

Have yet to make friends with ALL my classmates. Soon.

Okay, I must revise now le huh. MUACKSMUACKSMUACkS!

Doctor Love

2006-04-19T21:02:00.000+08:00

Lessons were nothing like easy. TOUGH! I nearly went berserk. Sighs. Staying focus is really difficult. Slides after slides. Theories after theories. In addition, my lecturer's strong india accent. If i'm not wrong, I've got 6 lecturers. Of all sexy ones, 4 hot ones carried this accent. Without paying ample attention, you would have thought that you were attending an indian class. This is not an insult, of course. But it's really hard to understand mah. SIGHS. The lecture notes are already driving me crazy, yet I've got to put in EXTRA effort to understand what my lecturer's saying. SIGHS.

Okay. No photos yet, bcus my school mates might probably think I'm krazy snapping away. Hah.

I've just got my LAB COAT! Show u guys. XS still so Hippopotamus BIG!
You see that kaypoh chee Kopi. People take picture, she also wants to tag along.

I just found out that there's ECA. I'm prolly joining Journal Club. Not Journalist. Erm, Science Club? No idea why it's called Journal Club. Should have called it- Ultimate Mad Scientist Club. No lar. Hees. Not nerdy hor. Gonna be fun!

Potential Doctor okay. Yahyahyah. Doctor's leg hair jiu have. Hees.

Okay, I must watch telly now. Then, revise abit. HEN NAN LEH!

YAY YAY YAY! You boys are sexay. Love it.

Visual Perfection

I'm UPSET, NO MORE!

2006-04-18T18:07:00.000+08:00

YAY! So ~~A-P-P-L-E~~ H-A-P-P-Y! Because I made 3 new friends!! All normal ones. HEH!
*drum rolls*
Sha.
Cheryl.
Shirlyn.
Beverly!
YAY!!! Many many YAYs!!
More new friends to come. Happy LEH! O-LEH!

Maths was so DIAO today. FRACTIONS! So I spent 1/4 of the time drawing my PRETTAY name on my thickthick( hui ya si ren de shu! Ni neh-neh! ) books on the front cover. Of course, I did my assignments as well. I'm a changed person. I procastinate NO MORE! Hees. I'm BERRY HAPPY! Oh, the indian dudes in my class very shuai de leh!

Okay. I sat train with my 2 new friends home. HAPPY! Sat shuttle bus together also! HEEs.

HAPPY HAPPY! YAY!

Anatomy & Chemistry tomor-row!! Really very tough! *pulls my hair*

Now I felt that 6months is really a very short period of time! Too short a time to know my dear new mates well enough. Sighs. ANYWAY! I LOVE SCHOOL! Every bit of it.

My new friend has yet to see the canteen scene. (outnumbered scene) SO YAY! Tomorrow we'll experience it together! YAY! So, I might be too busy talking with my friends to take photos to show u guys. HAHA. Okay lar. I stop hao lian-ing my new friends liao okay? I very happy siah!

I know you think I'm siao. Cannot huh. YAY!!

See my new mates tommor-ROW! HAPPY! *Dance with pom pom* SHUT UP LAR! HEEs!

dont like it!

2006-04-17T18:30:00.000+08:00

I dont like school! I dont like school! I DONT LIKE SCHOOL!

That's all I want to say about my first day of school.

I'm taking photos of break time at canteen to show u guys. Sighs. The ratio of foreigners is to Singaporeans is like.. 2 : 1. SIGHS. Maybe I'm not used to it yet.

KIRA TOMATO!! Come join me quick! Sighs.

Maybe I'll get a cheena BF soon. I saw this vietnam guy. SOOO SEXAY! Ha. Haiya. I'm still very sad okay.

I'm sad. I'm angry. I'm upset.

I'm trying to be happy about all thease shit okay. BUT.. My 2hrs break was really BORING! I wandered around and spent 20mins to find that shitarse canteen. I ate. I went to the library in search of story books. And there were only reference books like, biomedical & business management. DIAO! Not even a photography book. FINE. So I bought a drink from the vending machine.. and sit on the bench. Yes, ALONE! I'm very sad okay.

Lectures weren't any better. It's really tough. The lecturer & their medical terms. SO DIFFICULT. Okay. And my classmates.. Well, many were foreigners and they've got their own "tong xiang", probably because they stay in the same hostel. So, it's really hard to wanna make a friend. And our age gap varies from 16 to 22 yrs old? Sighs.

Did I mention I'm gotta get a LAB COAT?! That's like so cool! HAHAHA!

Well, school is really boring. I've got nothing else to say , other than BORING! I think it's gonna get better. Kira Oh Kira, see ya in June! Sighs.

2006-04-13T22:15:00.000+08:00

I'm quitting my slave job soon, because my classes are 9am-5pm. Sighs. Goodbye to colleagues, goodbye to money. HAHA.

I've been thinking a lot recently. Like, loads. Bcus insomnia hits me again. And I play Monopoly on my phone before i go to bed every night. Yahyahyah. Anyway, life has been really pessimistic for me. And for a moment, I couldnt make up my mind on what to spend with my salary. Sighs. I've grown greedy. LOL. Okay, that's not the point. Well, I just felt that I've changed to be an extravagant. Very bad change! I must change. I should start living on buns & 3 for $10 undies. Ha. Yahyahyah.

School is starting for many. And I'm so happy for my friends who made new friends. ESPECIALLY, BLACK! She comes online and annoyed me with her "Promethens simply rocks my socks!!!!! Go Methens Go Methens Go Methens." MSN nick. I'm so angry lor. BECAUSE I'VE YET TO MAKE ANY NEW FRIENDS LOR. So sad you know. Becus I'm NewFriends-less, while my dear fren out there got so many friends. *blows my nose* And hao lian to me her new friendSSSSSSS somemore. *grab for more napkins. SOB.* Though, she's kind enough to wanna introduce her new male friend to me. SIGHS. And soon they'll leave me one by one. *wipes my tear* And soon.. soon.. No one will laugh with me and go nutsy with me. *BAHHHHHHH.. *

Okay lar. I'll get my new friends real soon. With a condition that I look sociable on that day.

Tomorrow will be my "last reunion" with my old school-mates before we all go our seperate ways. Sighs. Kite-flying.

Oh heavenly shit! I miss my Da Chang Jin liao lah! ARGH!

SIGHS.

Old Rural Females

2006-04-09T22:49:00.000+08:00

Gosh, it's happening again.

3weeks more to next dental appointment!

Afghan

2006-04-09T01:24:00.000+08:00

Perhaps it's just pre-school anxiety. Not exactly, though. Sighs.

I had a good laughing session with aunty susie. She says the lamest & funniest things in a mixture of Hokkien+Cantonese+English+Chinese. And her mighty morphine- WAH PIANG EH, can make me fall off the chair. I told her I dont eat sour prunes bcus I always thought of it as shit. Then she replied saying, if that's the case, chocolate ice cream would be more shit-ty. Ha. Yah, not funny. I'm pretty happy. She's a very cunning person. Ha.
MH, Auntie susie went Emerald to buy Kway Chap for me. LOL. Finally. HAHA.

Ever since the course, the whole team seems to bond better. Ha.

Oh, oh, oh.. The Bus 65 driver actually greets the passengers- "Zhao An". Hmm. World is changing. Ha. Of course, I meant it as a compliment. Really nice driver.

If one day..

Sighs. I must sleep now. I just finished my essay. DNA, GENES, Chromosomes, Human Wah seh. .

I wanna go to the wonderous places you told me about.

Drifted apart.

I always knew that I'm never lucky.
I found that I'm growing to be less happy as I grow up. I cant HAHAHA as easy as before. Aunty Susie tells me so.

CTRL+ALT+DEL. End Task.

Human Genome project

2006-04-08T00:39:00.000+08:00

That's the topic of the essay I gotta write as part of my enrolment requirement. Diao. Even before my term starts, I've gotta do this.

A portion of what I've read on. It's pretty interesting actually. Well, linking from DNAs of humans to how they research to diagnose, treat or prevent disorders that affects us. Human biology and all that shits.

Some current and potential applications of genome research include

YMolecular medicine
YEnergy sources and environmental applications
YRisk assessment
YBioarchaeology, anthropology, evolution, and human migration
YDNA forensics (identification)
YAgriculture, livestock breeding, and bioprocessing

It's official that I'm gonna study in UniCampus. I'm proud of it okay. Not proud lar, but not ashamed. I'm not giving a damn to people depising me or thinking that I'm plain dumb just bcus I'm schooling in a private. And not a poly, like everyone else. Not that I'm overreacting. But It's gonna happen, I bet. I'm not stew-pid okay. I score a sexay. Not some 40 over points. Well, It's actually at Stirling Road, and not the one in Dhoby Ghaut. Sighs. I'll nvr be able to escape long travelling hours.

And..and...and!! It's only a 6months course. Great or what?! Ha. So, my term officially ends in December.

I've got loads of NP course withdrawal to do. What a chore! *&^%$#%^$!^

10th- Orientation
17th- Term starts

Yah. LONELY. I'm not even sure who I'm gonna meet. Richies. Ha. Not even sure if I'm gonna meet & know friends. All bcus, I'm so cool. Yahyahyah. I dont know how to make friends. Dont know how to. Teach me lar.

I attended [Gems] customer service course. It was BRILLIANT! Love it. I got to know about the major upcoming events WOW-ing S'pore. It's gonna change me in one way or another. It' s a lot about the mindset, when it comes to the service industry.

All it takes is 5minutes with yourself. Talking to yourself. I thought I was abnormal. Well, the speaker of that course does that too. He's worst. 5minutes everyday, without fail. I take 30mins before I fall into my beauty sleep, whenever I cant get to sleep. Ha.

I'm Y ing the colour- BLUE. Blue da-bur-di-da-bur-dar. Ha.

choo-choo train

2006-04-04T14:54:00.000+08:00

It's official that term starts on the 17th april for me. This means no more slaving. And of course, no more extravagances. Not that I've been spurgling madly. Ugh.. This just means I would be as broke as ever.

I dont ever know where I spend my salary on. They just finished up by themselves. I need to go rob. Melissa first, MingHui second, Dingxuan third, Eunice Fourth. Should be enough. Black, I let you be my accomplice lar okay? Since, you're retrenched since Jan. Ha.

Okay, I cant wait for school.

It's raining, It's pouring.

I'm flabby annoyed by customer's complaints! And I can take it no more. I'm getting my lens done real soon, so that they wouldnt think I'm "staring" at them when I squint my eyes. I want to slap them. mumblesmumbles. I'm afraid I would miss work. My freecell khaki, the havoc aunty & the tiny people from x:odussy.

I wish, i wish everything would be smooth-sailing. Bcus you've disappointed me, I'm having doubts about you now. You, you, you used to be my hero. Ha.

YJunior school sweethearts.

Barbie Beverly. Ha.

2006-04-01T23:18:00.000+08:00

My "emo" season isnt over. There's just something wrong. I just need to release my frustrations that's all. I need to slaughter a cat, that's all. Ha.

Work was pretty sexay. Ha. I've learnt from my dear Mh. Not to be so "dao", and to say "no problem!" when they've tried 746578436pairs of shoes.And SMILE! So not me! I acted so much today can! Eek. Thank You! *smiles* ByeBye! *smiles* See you! *smiles* No problem! Heads towards the storeroom and says Nabei! I really cant stand them. But I guess today is not that bad.

I wanna take off on Monday, so that I can watch "So you think you can dance?" HAHAHA.

Finally, my OFF-day tmr. I promise..
To bring my darlingkopi go GAIGAI. Ha. Kopi has been so lonely since my Os. And now that I'm working, I've never got enough time for her. I'm not feeling good. Sighs. She's turning 2 soon. Yet, I've never had enough of her. I'm missin her. Yahyahyah. I'm crazy. But she's really very adorable, lovable and all the -ables. Sighs. Love.

So looking forward to her birthday.

It's such a great feeling to talk about your primary school life with your then best bud. Love. I miss project-works. And behind-the-scenes of our final product- going to each others hse and playing with glue & plasticine. HAHA. Miss it. We were once so close, but ever since we've drifted apart. It seems like we're strangers to each other. Really miss my pri sch dwarfy buds. ha.

I'm Druma Queen. HAHA.
http://barbie.everythinggirl.com/

They've cheered me UP! They're SO SO SO PRET! http://www.barbiecollector.com/showcase/
I've always loved Barbie Dolls and I still love them so, especially their collectibles series. Whoolala!

Yes! I've finally typed out a **** letter. I never knew it felt this great. HAHAHA. Love it!

For this entry is meant for myself to read. Ha.

2006-03-30T01:29:00.000+08:00

I guess this is a ~~monthly~~ once every 3 or 4 months affair when I get superultra emotional/guilty/upset with everything that happened over the past few months. And indulge in a song for hours and feel like shit. And it's Worn Me Down right now. Love it. Just because I'm born this way and I love ~~talking to myself~~ a time for myself & myself.And I've never got a soul-mate, which I doubt I'll get any all my life.Ha. So dumb.

Worn me down like a road
I did everything you told
Worn me down to my knees
I did everything to please

I do wish I could pour out everything like everyone else does. Call up someone and grumbles non-stop, to curse & swear and go to bed. But,it's pretty hard to, as I've sealed my lips after my failed friendship in primary school. It's a phobia, i guess. You dont understand because I'm slightly different.Ha. And I know no one listens. I understand. Who will want listen to your sorrows? dumb.

And it's the time now for me to release my collections of worries/sadness/upsetupsetupset-ness. Plenty. SADSADSAD.Sighs.

I'm pretty troubled over the abnormal plans ahead for me- school. This means drifting apart from all my friends. It's gonna be different. Very different. Perhaps we wont even be play-mates, just once-friends kinda thing. It's hard. It's so wrong.

I need not say much about work. I felt like strangling my customers already. Close to throwing them off the handrails, down to the HR's miniature foundation.

Gone, she's gone.
How would you feel about it?

I dont understand.

Sighs. I think this is pretty good. self-reflection/self-awareness- good for me. Sometimes I felt I'm being pulled to become like the ones following the queue to ugly-lies-&-realities life. Hmm, being fake and everything. You just lose your virtues because you got carried away with..your desires to get whatever you want. Fame, money, friends. Yah. Ha. You dont understand. I just dont feel like it, doing something just because others are doing so and it's so unlike of me. You just dont understand. Sometimes I just feel myself doing what I shouldnt have done. Like, buying that kuku dress. Love it still. Sighs.

As I stand in an audience's stand seeing someone changing into someone else they probably idolised or some kind, I'm pretty disappointed???. Perhaps because they've lost the originity in them, my neverfoundagain friend I used to have. Many are changing. So am I. Is that called "growing up"? Ha. I almost forgot I'm still growing.

I'm changing to be.. like the rest.

Every man for himself.

I believe in this. Ha. I would be dumb to think someone will love me more than I love myself. Sighs. When fake-ness comes in, it's a total PUT OFF! I so damn hate it.

Am I wrong?

And you're wrong, you're wrong
I'm not overreacting
Something is off
Why don't we ever believe ourselves
And I, oh, I feel that word for you
And I will, because you've worn me down
Oh, I will because you have worn me down

Will you ever feel all alone at the end of the day? Yes, I do. I'm being honest. Ha. And everything seems like a show i had put up with. Sighs.

I dont like your ugly lies. AW-ful. I'm tired of putting up with all these "shows". I need something real, simple, no fakeness.

I guess I probably need to be alone before I ready for these shows again. School is starting for everyone soon. Sighs.

I love that smile of yours. Not because it's pretty, but it's because it's "real". I like you as my friend. Not because you're popular, but it's because you're no actress. I like being with you. Not because you are fun, but it's because... this i dont know. I just feel myself being with you.

Afterall, many friends do make up for one soul-mate, i guess. Different friends, different roles.

You dont understand. Probably there's something wrong with me. Too bad.

I really love this song. Worn me Down. LOVE.

Be Be Your Love

2006-03-30T00:17:00.000+08:00

If I could take you away
Pretend I was queen
What would you say
Would you think I'm unreal
'Cause everybody's got their way I should feel
Everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love, for real
Everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love for real
Want to be your everything
Everything...Everything's falling, and I am included in that
Oh, how I try to be just okay
Yeah, but all I ever really wanted
Was a little piece of you
And everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love, for real
Everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love

Want to be your love for real
Everything will be alright
If you just stay the night
Please, sir, don't you walk away, don't you walk away, don't you walk away
Please, sir, don't you walk away, don't you walk away, don't you walk away
And everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love, for real
Everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love for real
And everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love, for real
Everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love for realI want to be your love, love, love

I think I love it. LOVE IT!
Many a times, I find myself answering to the questions that I've asked. Love it or what? Hate this shit.

I'm not likin my job.

2006-03-28T23:16:00.000+08:00

Can you not try?
Can you not ask?
Can you not "see"?
Can you wait?
Can you just browse?
Can you just try a pair?
Can you not hesitate for so long just for a pair of $22.10 shoes?
Can you not "try for fun"?
Can you not ask your bf whether to purchase it or not?

I'm puking at the sight of shoes right now. I would never do retail ever again! Never, ever!

First month- sweet. Second month- bland. Third month- Eeek, Yuck, Argh!
Yah, yah, yah. Customers are ALWAYS right. Even when they try 67758639 pairs of shoes without buying. Even when they just try with no intention to buy. Worst still, I cant even grumble. Hate it!

I'm there as a sales assistant, not a slave. To assist you, not to serve you like a queen.

Some girls are real bimbos and dummies. They obediently listened to their "darlings" when they ask them not to get those shoes. Are you kuku-brained? STEW-PID!

Nice customers do exist, though. But I'm ignoring their presence because all these mean customers are pissing me off!

Okay, I'm gotta sleep RIGHT NOW because I'm working a FULL-shift tmr. I'm very grumpy, really grumpy.. EXTREMELY GRUMPY.

My BO GAY-ness

2006-03-22T22:32:00.000+08:00

I think my dentist is a real sweetie. I just L-O-V-E him. I just went for my 2nd round of teeth-plucking session today. 2 teeth-less. No pain, no gain. I want a beautiful smile. If my dentist doesnt gives me what I want, I'm gonna screw him. Ha. He's real nice.

Because I'm really pathetic and there's no one to accompany me, I couldnt tell the cabby driver the location of my place with my mouth stuffed with blood-stained cotton balls... I typed my address in my phone and flashed it to the cabby driver. The cabby driver then took my phone and replied with a chuckle. The driver prolly thinks I'm mute. Ha. It's pretty embarassing.

It's pretty terrible having to bleed for another 2 hrs. So, I took my nap. And about 1hr later I woke up to change my blood-stained cotton balls, I realised that i bit on my own lips together with the cotton balls, when i looked into the mirror. My lower lips were frigging numb after 6 jabs of anesthetic. And I felt like I've got hotdog lips. HA.

5weeks more to next dental appointment. Love it!

You dont get these in underaged parties.

2006-03-21T00:59:00.000+08:00

He's sexy. "He/She" is hot.

Dinner & dance was a party meant for adults. It was not just dancing under the disco lights & chilling out. It's... sexy dance, alcohol, cirgarettes, sexual actions, kissing, hugging, "rubbing", dirty words, dirty games,dirty dance & dirty men. And.. transexual/transversite. (spelling?) Performances are meant to be entertainment for dirty men. And men just get sexually aroused and sprout nonsense. Get drunk and their post-clubbing party round 2 begins.

Yes, it was too much for me as an underaged. It wasnt that "cool" as it seemed afterall. I couldnt accept it either. I guess "clubbing" are for big bosses to socialise & dirty men to get flesh. Giving a peck on different women's cheeks/lips seems like nothing. No commitments, nothing. I'm just disappointed in men. Yes, I learning things as i grow up. Sighs. I just got to adapt to it.

Everything was still fine while they were still sober. This man touched numberous boobies tonight, including the transexual ones. HAHA. Lucky one.

But still, dinner & dance was pretty fun though. Yes, Dinner-and-Dance. The only decent programmes. Those yucky drag shows made me laugh throughout the programme though. Lucky dx got a kiss. HAHA.

If you're lucky, you'll spot something. Ha.
I'm frightened of him/her. He makes me wanna puke.

Okay. Work still resumes tomorrow. My hair stinks of cirgarettes smell. Eek. Yes, Alibaba & Chun Li.

I bought a toaster home. I nearly won a home threatre set. fuckit. Yes, I'm just so lucky.
Tonight was L-O-V-E! Night folks!

ShangHai Tang

2006-03-19T23:07:00.000+08:00

"Yay! D&D tomorrow! DANCE,DANCE,DANCE!" HAHAHAHA.

Yuck. You actually wore Outfitters tee to club at your underage party? What were you thinking? Shame on you!

Tomorrow's will be fun! I dont care. More fun than yours. Er xin gui!!

Okay. I dont feel like blogging. I'm gonna paint my PRET-test nails right NOW!

I very sad.
I very sad.
I very sad.

Rouge, trishaw & cheena fans.

I dont like that school I'm enrolled to.

2006-03-16T21:37:00.000+08:00

My passport-sized photo. HAHAHA. My mama says she does not look like me. Yahyahyah. Before I went for my shot, I flashed my shinyshimmery Bracey smile to my mama. Guess what she says? She said that my mouth is v big. ARSE. Then, she asked me not to show my bracey. And I looked like a very blanked look dummy. And she says," Lidat can lor." DOTS.I posed for two shots. One revealing my Bracey, one not revealing. The Bracey one turneed out nicer. Yes, I smiled revealing my shimmery Bracey. HAHA. I've had a hard time preparing for this dummy shots. My brows. My Blingbling teeth. HAHA. Anyway, I took it right after I woke up from my afternoon nap. Is it PRET or not? Not too bad right?

Okay, I allowed my mama to cut my hair. I just cant resist trimming it short. It's an addiction. I wanted to do BOB. But I permed my hair curly. So, it turned out a lil Ashlee simpson. HAHAHA. Not as nice, of course. Not blond too.

It's 16th March,a very disgusting day. It's about underaged kiddos going "clubbing" and thinks they're oh-so-cool. I just dont understand what they're proud of. Yuck. Afterall, it's an underaged party for kiddos, who're deprived of the "IN-est" thing among them - CLUBBING/CHIONG-ing. No alcohol, nothing. Just dancing under the disco ball makes them so HIGH. Furthermore, taking photos in front of the dancing crowd as evidence that they've clubbed. Eeyer. Yah, I cant deny the fact that parties is hell fun. I love fooling around with my playmates too. But, can you not brag?? Gosh... It's only an "underaged" party for immatures. Extreme party goers must have been disgusted and avoided this particular club on this very unfortunate day.

Sighs. Enrollment preparations is just pissing me OFF! ROARS!!!

24th APRIL I'll meet new class-mates

2006-03-16T00:37:00.000+08:00

Can I not go to school, please?

I'm having mixed feelings about being back-to-school. Sighs. I've been busy earning big bucks that I haven't enjoyed myself. Yes, D&D on the 20th Mar. I promise to go NUT-sy. I dont care. Before school starts, I'm going for a full body massage, foot reflexology & facial. Join me. Work has really tortured me. Standing an average of 6-8hrs a day has made my legs be full of complaints. My limps aint feeling any better.

BIGSighs. "Fashion-show" in Poly is gonna drive me crazy. Walking from lecture hall to canteen would be a runway walk. Sighs. I'm starting my collections of unique-unique & more uniques right now. A cycle of copycopy&copy...

A big question mark to making new friends. Sighs.

I havent got over the tremor of examinations. Horrifying.

Pre-enrollment preparations is a big waste of my time. Packages after packages. Then comes catalogues. Sighs. I wished someone would settle everything for me. MA FAN!

Orientation Camp. HAHAHAHA. If Dx's appeal is unsuccessful, then it's the start of our nutsy businesses. The Charlies Angel + BOBOCHACHA. So glad to have MH the lameshit (aka MissyLim) as schoolmates. HAHAHA. It's a promise to meet for lunch break okay. HAHA. Then maybe we can go swimming after class. Yahyahyah. I think school would be fun with our old gang. Sighs.

Passport-sized photo. HAHA. I must take the PRET-tiest passport sized photo. Gotta settle my bushy ones tmr. HAHAHA.

My 7days work consecutively has ended. Yes, tiring. Okay. I gotta do my bracy-business & sleep now. Nights folks!

So sad to be separated from our boy-gang. I'm gonna miss out their girls-ogling sessions. SHIT.

Nicole-not-very-rich-actually

2006-03-15T00:03:00.000+08:00

Yippee! Payday is tomorrow! I just cant wait! I think it's gonna be very little. Sighs.

I just received my enrolment package this morning. I guess I missed my books.

I cant wait to make new friends. Maybe i should get a dumbygeek as my closest pal and influence him/her all the bad stuffs. LOL. Nahs. I'm determined to be a diligent student. With my smartarse face, everyone will think I'm pretty smart. HAHA. I shall be the lecturer's pet. Yahyahyah.

Actually, entering poly is a great opportunity to make a change to yourself. Like, if you've been a sucker in your sec sch, it's the right time to become a saint now. Tell me, tell me. What's your IMAGE for poly? HAHA.

Braceybevy: Hella, I'm Nicole Richest. New here? LOL.
NewFriend: Oh, hello. I'm Mimi. Yah, I'm new here.
BraceyBevy: Eh, my braces nice or not arh?

HAHAHA.

Dear mates(dxmheujuved & the boygang), lets meet up one week before school starts for everyone okay? Sighs. So sad. Dont miss me yah? Make it a point to make once every 3months. Hais. I really miss my class-mates!

Compliment me and I'll fly up HIGH

2006-03-12T22:53:00.000+08:00

I've never met one, who's so generous with her compliments. Gosh. Out of nowhere... But I'm just glad. HOHOHO.

Fabulous day working at Heeren. I discussed loads about braces with my fellow bracey colleague. Her turquoise bands are Beautiful. I'll get them on my teeth in the future.

I must spend some time on my bracey teeth before I go drool now. I'm superduperultra worn off from work. It's 4days straight till now. 3more days to go before my off day. *pats on my shoulder* KNNB! That's all folks.

PRET---Pretty.

I'm Nicole Rich-est this month.

Play-mates. I'm never wrong with this.

2006-03-10T00:54:00.000+08:00

Realities are just so absurd. So gross. It just disgusts me. For I'm meeting strange people all my life, facing their strange behaviours.

It's a major disappointment.

Kopi, kopi. How nice will it be if you could speak. Sighs.

All I wished for is to chew on chicken drumstick

2006-03-08T13:29:00.000+08:00

Sighs. I'm very hungry.

I couldnt resist biting on nuggets so I ate two. And I spent almost 1/2 hrs to finish that two pathetic nuggets. And I couldnt resist supper too. So, I ate maggi. And I choked on them several times shallowing them. Sighs. Having braces is really a good way to diet. I got pissed off & tired out shallowing that I didnt wanted to eat anymore. Sighs.

I'm brushing as much as I eat. Gargling as much as I drink water.

I should have got dentures.

But still.. I'm loving Bracey. My first step to perfect teeth. Sighs.

I'm trying to accept my posting for now. Prolly I wouldnt get into that course I appealed for. Sighs. Posting is based on merit & not interest. What an arse.

Met up with my mates. Sighs.
I really miss..
school
crapping
hopping
jumping
laughing
monkey businesses
names calling
teasing
PAST TENSE

I love my Dentist

2006-03-06T22:32:00.000+08:00

My dentist's round belly is so comfy! And his Rolex watch goes tick-a-tick at my ears. HAHA.

I did my lower teeth. I've got no idea why but I'm not prepared for my lower teeth's extractions. Probably because I'm afraid I'll faint bleeding for another 2hrs once more.So, postponed to next visit. Sighs. Did the wiring and brackets. I felt my mouth widened by at least 4cm.

"Open wider. Yes, bite hard now. Yah, that's right." This went on for over an hour,

I felt uneasy when Mr dentist & Ms nurse asked about my posting. I was pretty ashamed that I've got no straight As results to boast with. Sighs. It's a feeling of being despised. But of course, dentist & missy have no intentions of humiliating me. I just felt inferior. I'm feeling the stress now.

I dont need your pricks to teach me how.

Fuckshit luck

2006-03-03T22:38:00.000+08:00

Posting was.. Pretty disappointing bcus I didnt get into the mission-impossible course I wanted. I'm not looking forward to poly now. I'm not in the mood to face those dummy books & notes. Neither do I want to meet new friends in the hide-in-warehouse course. If I had got the course I wanted, everything will be so much better. Sighs. Maybe I'll love it someday.

I'm getting myself a new name, a new profile & a new identity. Ha. I dont wish to meet anymore "strange" people. I cant get along with them because i'm not a very friendly person. HAHAHA.

After I've got the posting, my mind told me I had to get out of home & have some fun. And yes, mhjuvdxeu & me hits MS for some crazy time out. It's pretty crazy. Very exhausting. And perhaps one of our last gatherings. Ha.

I'm giving babyface's chalet a miss. Sighsighsigh.

I need to rest for now. If not, I'm gonna be fucking late for work, and it's not a very nice thing to do.

Everything's so strange.I'm missing happy times. And i still cry thinking of them.

Posting is out tomorrow!

2006-03-02T12:16:00.000+08:00

Sighs.I'm pretty nervous.If I dont get into the course I wanted, I dont wish to live anymore. Haha.

On the second day of my Bracey days, I couldnt feed myself with porridge for any longer. So, I ate Mee siam for lunch. Bread with tomato&luncheon meat for dinner. And MaggiMee for supper.HAHA. Today, Mama cooked me Curry Chicken. HAHA.

I'm showing you my blood-stained cotton balls. Pretty grossed but..
Pretty?

HAHA.Yahyahyah. I'm a very disgusting girlie. HA HA HA.

I've started stocking up my closet for poly. Whoo! Exciting!

My Bracey face. I think I looked abit smarter with Bracey. Ha.

I love my initial "B".

The fondness I had for braces

2006-03-01T12:44:00.000+08:00

I'm liking the name "Bracey Bevy".

Actually, one of the reasons for me to get my bracey done yesterday was bcus of the D&D on 20th March. HOHOHO! By then , I guess I would be able to gorge myself with chicken wings! HA HA HA. I've got 20days to heal. YES!

Okay. I had sweet dreams of gorging myself with food last night, which is so impossible. I'm beginning on my puree diet. Mama cooked me porridge with only 2 pathetic slices of pork meat, which I'll never be able to chew on. So, I'm giving it to my darling "woofwoof". HA.

My first day of brushing my Bracey teeth was wonderous. Together with my remaining teeth, I brushed my plucked teeth too. HOHOHO.

The brackets are pricking my lips a little. Pretty troublesome.

Okay, I'm looking forward to Dx getting her teeth plucked next week. HAHAHA. I plucking another 2 teeth next week. No worries. Never PS you. HAHAHA.

I go drink my porridge liao. BB!

Goodbye, crowded teeth.

2006-02-28T21:03:00.000+08:00

Dear mates,

I've just got my upper teeth's braces done! I'm bleeding like fuck & I cant speak. Okay. I gotta sleep now, before my anesthetic goes away. Nights nights. I'll come online again if the pain wakes me up from my deep sleep. I'm so HAPPY!!

Mates, I couldnt get to sleep bcus..
My teeth are still bleeding after almost 2hrs & I've got to get up to change my BIG cotton balls every half an hour. I'm on my fourth one.
I'm very excited with the new-found braces that entered my life. I must get up to look into the mirror.
Melissa refused to SMS me, so i couldnt get to sleep.
I slept till 12noon today.

I'm flabbyflabby HAPPY about my braces. The thought of straightened teeth is SO whoolala! My first step to pretty teeth. Yeah. Why should I be so happy when others have got natural straight teeth, while mine are "artifical". I dont give a damn. I just enjoy getting jabbed with syringes after syringes of anesthetic. I love seeing the dentist pull my teeth off with brute force, twisting my tiny head from side to side. HA. So funny. I ENJOY. HA HA HA.

I had to admit that I'm a lil krazy over braces, brackets, jabs & blood-stained cotton balls.

My puppy is krazy as well. I dont WTF is she doing right now. She's sitting on the floor staring into thin air. And when I turn to stare at her. She walks away and sits somewhere else. Madness. When I returned home with cotton balls stuffed in my mouth, she wants to kiss me. She's krazy lar. I thinks she's jealous over my attention for braces. I must play "Chase" with her tomorrow. She loves being chased. Mad one.

Okay, the anesthetic is going away. Just hope the pain would be too much for me.

With many blood-stained cotton wool for you my friends,
Bracey Bevy

I wnat to show you my blood-stained cotton balls and tissues. WA HA HA HA! Say me Meowmeow de arse, STUFF THEM INTO YOUR FILTHY MOUTH ARH! The first two coton balls were far worst. Want to see my plucked teeth also? I polish nice nice then show you okay. HA HA HA.

UPLOAD TOMORROW

I cant imagine that face on you, while spamming me with KUKU names.

2006-02-28T12:32:00.000+08:00

Go on with your nasty remarks. You'll just be adding up to a more interesting blogging life for me. Tag more rubbish and her fingers will go rot with fungus okay. Her nails will chip off every single day. Jealousy kills.

Mates, I'm secretly loving the feeling of being envied of. Sorry la. HAHA.

Dont ever insult my puppy(woofwoof) okay. No one can be compared to her. You think who wants to be my woofwoof jiu can be huh? CRAZY. Jealous again? Go get yourself one la.

I wonders who's the copymeow. Go ask that blog's owner if who's the one copying before you embarass yourself CAN? Just look at my archives, you fool! I owe a million of entries since God knows when. And my template is a Blogger's template. That's too bad if anyone have the same template as me. Heard that? Too bad!

Life has been just as wonderful. I spent half of my working hrs on the phone with my mates. The great thing is.. I get paid for talking on the phone! HAHA.

I wish everything will be like what I've planned out to be. I've got 4days off and I'm flabby bored. No more disappointments again, please.

Sighsighsigh. Sometimes I really wonder that there's an "inner you" in each and everyone. Or should i call it, "your real personality". I dont know how to phrase it. But this is puzzling me. I really want to know what everyone is thinking. Why some people can be SO fake, yet they can still go on with their acting for their entire life. You wont get what i mean. Forget it.
Dont you feel uneasy doing things that's so not you? "Insecurity" - I called it. I would feel very uneasy slipping on something so Not me, regardless of how pretty it seemed on me. Whatever lar.

I dont like making friends.
I dont like being friendly.
I dont like socialising.
i dont like waving at you.
I dont like "entertaining" you.
I dont idolise anyone. except Nicole Richie. Ha.
I'm stingy with my compliments.
I cant pretend I like you.
Either can i lie that I like you as my friend.
I cant bootlick like you do.
I cant act as well as you do.
I cant act for more than a minute.
I cant hide my flaws.
I cant hide my expressions.
I'm not born with a ohsosweet face like you do.
I dont own a famous face.
That explains why I'm so different from you. You're Eeee. Dont disgust me.

Take My Poll

2006-02-25T23:34:00.000+08:00

Just take this poll, (only my friends)

When did i ever let my mood affect my friends around me when I'm angry/upset/ "moodswing"?

I seriously NEVER ever allow this to happen even once, unless you're pissing me off with ridiculous questions and annoying remarks. MH knows I'll have a damn black face when i've got "moodswings". And she'll ignore me. That is what I call "friends", understand?

Tell me what's your definition of "not taking my friends for granted". Shower them with gifts? Bootlick them? Worship them? Be their follower? Share their thinking? Respect them to the extent that I seem like their pet?

Sorry, but that's SO UNLIKE of me. Take it that I dont know how to take my friends for granted.

All i can say that nutcase "ER", who attempt to preach to me and teach me moral values, doesnt even know me well. I can even say that none of my friends would even understand me after knowing me for years, except for a few, because I never expressed my emotions to any of my friends. Neither do i confine to any of my friends. WHY? Because, I AM BEVERLY GAN.

So "ER", you're an arse who pissed me with your false accusations. Tell me, do you even know me? Do i confine to you? Most importantly, can i trust you?

Answer is "NO"? Then you're in no position to question my moral value.

This spamming shit is getting crazier. Dont even bother to tag when you dont even know me LAR. CAN?

Eunice, "ER" & "JAson" are two different people. My intuition tells me so. Pretty sure. This "ER" is an arse, a big disgrace to the universe. She attempts to tell me nicely. But so sorry, I depise this kind of people. Yucks. And the pile of nothing-but-nonsense-and-she-thinks-she-knows-me-SO-well rubbish is pissing me OFF.

"ER", stop pretending that you know me so well can? You're not fit to tell me to change or attempt to brainwash me with your "Oh, so holy" preachings. Do you practise what you preach? If yes, I'm so glad for you. Bet you must have got truckloads of good friends EH? Go share your preaching with those truckloads of friends who stuck onto you, probably bcus you SOSOSO cherish your friends. You dont even have the guts to type out your name, so dont come irritate me. From your tags, I can roughly analyse your character. I bet you werent any better than me. I BET, and draw one BIG cross over my tongue.

Dedicated to "JAson" who spams me RELIGIOUSLY

2006-02-24T23:13:00.000+08:00

[A note to "JAson"- you must finish reading this entry.]
Sweetest "JAson",

With love, I want to thank you for worshipping my blog so much. Judging from the numerous tags from you, I crown you my royal fan of the month - February.

First, you started saying that I've got small boobs. I never knew anyone would be so concerned about my dear boobs. I've got to thank you for reminding me of this shortcoming of mine. I'm aware of it and I've been consuming many "FATS" since then. Guess you'll be so envy of me because... Hehehehe. (I'm acting cute.)

I wouldnt be annoyed unless you go overboard with your insults. So, you can continue ~~saying~~ insulting me. I really dont mind.

I can understand fully that you obviously hates me very much. But I'm unsure of your motive behind all these. To annoy me or to embarrass me? I'm not saying "Feng1 Liang2 Hua4" to agitate you. I just want you to know that you wont gain anything from spamming me with nothing but nonsense tags. I dont lose anything. While you're cursed by many and I'm sure you'll be feeling guilty. No matter how mean you are, or how much you hate me, I'm sure you'll be feeling uneasy.

I just hope you would read my "act cute" entries and hate me in slience. I dont need anyone's comments. I know it's very unbearable reading an "act cute"(as you've described me) person's blog.

I'm a very simple person and I'll never want to hate anyone, although I ~~hate~~ dislike this one person who I know hates me just as much. I understands how it feels to hate someone. Maybe you wanted me to feel bad or upset, tagging me with your "HATE beverly" tags. And your "Anti-beverly" slogan. But I hope you'll understand no one will ever like to be hate by anyone, even a stranger. It dont feels good. No doubt, I do curse & swear, I mean no harm. It's really very tiring hating someone. If you dislike me, you can choose not to read my blog, or maybe choose not to view my friendster profile. You'll feel better not knowing what going on in my life.

I just hope you would kindly understand. I mean no harm and it wont do you any good hating me either.

You name yourself "JAson" which obviously is not your name. Because I know that no "JAson" would hate me. Ha. No matter who you are, I'm not guessing. If I'm not wrong, it should be that group. I dont wish to make false accusations or assume it's you guys. Maybe you should think of what your purpose of doing these.

For fun? To agitate me, so that you'll be feeling so happy? Or just because you want to make known that you hate me.

I dont like making new friends, neither do i like making enemies. It sounds very act act, but it's not. I really dont mean anything. I'm not trying to make peace or plead with you to not hate me. I just hope you'll understand probably that you hate me because you dont know me. Or, because you're not my friend. No matter what rumours or stories you've heard of me, dont use them to judge me.

What I want to tell you is more than an entry long. Because I've so much to say. I dont know why neither. But if I continue, my blog is gonna lag and you'll have to waste a lot of time waiting for my blog to load, just to tag me with your that few sentences of "Hate beverly" tags.

Maybe you'll feel malu to stop spamming me as I've asked of you to do so. Fret not, and just read my entries in slience and not leave any footprints(hate tags). We can all forget about everything. Or you can come back with a name- "Sally" and tag "Hello!". I like the name Benjamin & Aloysious, for no particular reasons. You can use them, instead of JAson.

"JAson", dont be misunderstood that I'm asking you to not hate me. No, you can still hate me for all you want. But the method you've used to hate me is wrong. Maybe you can just hate me in slience. And everything will be so fine.

I'm not acting like a saint/kind girlie, but I'm just in the right mood today to talk abit of sense. And I believe that chasing you away with vulgarities or irritating you back with those Hate "JAson" tags will not help solve our misunderstanding.

With a handshake, a hug of thanks & many many thanks,
Beverly (PSY I dont act cute. Maybe, only in front of my crazy friends bcus they can stand me. )

Peeps, I'll be busy at work for the next three days. Bless me with many many lucks okays? Because my face is damn black today bcus I'm v pek chek with those Queens(my fussy customers) I served.

I wanted so badly to work with Jenny, Chris & Karen. They're my crazy-mates. And I really enjoyed working with them!

DX & MH, aware of that company's party themed "ShangHai ???" ? I'm pretty excited about it. Jenny joked of Alex dressing up as Trishaw man. Ha. Btw, rmb to let Steph know if you're not free, if not must pay 50bucks ley. Catch up with you guys soon.

2006-02-22T20:31:00.000+08:00

I'll show you my darling with her jumper.

Shut your mouth, cuz I wont let you cross my path.

2006-02-22T19:45:00.000+08:00

Today,
I did the laundry.
I changed the sheets.
I washed my flats & bags.
I swept the floor.
I mopped the floor.
I cleaned the toilet.
I scrubbed the sink.
I fed my dog.
I bathed my dog.
I bathed myself.
I attempted to trim my dog's nails.
I intended to walk my dog, but..

Okay, I'm very worn out. My hands are sore from twisting & twisting the mop.

YBeverly

Nicole Richie

2006-02-19T22:17:00.000+08:00

I Not Stupid 2 is flabby NICE! Yeah, I know I'm a little late to watch it only now. I think this movie is the best-est Singapore production ever. Cool man! Ha. I think the "ah bengs" are so hilarious. Especially, the one with tattoos & piercings. Ha. The part when the woman drew her brows using the chilli sauce tiny bowl is SOSOSOSOSO funny leh!

BORING.

Okayokay. I gotta go watch my 11pm show.

When will i see you again? I miss you like krazy.

Do it okays?

2006-02-19T00:58:00.000+08:00

Click This, Honey: http://kevan.org/johari?name=beverlyJULIUS

http://kevan.org/johari?view=beverlyJULIUS

I'm waiting

2006-02-18T23:53:00.000+08:00

My main concern isnt about that nutcase who noticed my ***** and finds them.. Erm, tiny?Yahyahyah. Dont talk to me unless you're Pamela Anderson okays? HAHA. It's either ahem or ahem. It's not surprising at all. No fun. Give me a hint, give me a hint. Are you that tall one or that fat one? HAHA.

Okays. Tomorrow is my off-day, again. I'm catching a movie tomorrow and I'm so looking forward to it. HAHA.

Work was EXTREMELY boring today. I read 2 magazines repeatedly. Talked on the phone with many people. Played freecell. Went for my breaks. Toilet breaks, lunch breaks, tea breaks & shopping breaks. And the best thing of all, I'm paid to do so. Yahyahyah.

You wouldnt believe how crazy my mama was. She called me, as usual, just to tell me what yummy food she've cooked. Then, she told me my darling doggy was napping on her lap. And.. she passed the phone to her. That's just so silly! To play along, I kept calling Kopi, Kopi through the phone. And Kopi responded puzzledly. Now I know that Kopi hasnt realise the invention of a telephone. Anyway, I was smiling from ear to ear after that phone call. Kopi knows I'm missing her. Yah, I'm insane. But I really love my dog okay.

I just couldnt figure out why. Why do I see your face every night? Today is one special day.

I LOVE MTS. HAHA.

2006-02-16T22:35:00.000+08:00

I slept so much that I missed out Part I of my primary school gathering. I just felt very sleepy and I dreamt of something crazy. And I woke up grumpy. I'm always grumpy these few days. I guess I'm getting KRAZY and I'm spanking those customers with those killer heels,probably Blossom Heel or Slivia Heels,if I dont get enough sleep tmr. Oh yes, Poshe wedge.

I made it for Part II of my primary school gathering. I expected to see my very own gang I used to hang out with in pri school and a big crowd making hell loads of sound. And I see a pathetic 8people? One by one left. Leaving 6 monkeys? Only 2 I havent met for years. And the rest are all of classmates in BSS. BORING.

I didnt get to see my crush- OREO, and i'm so disappointed okay! HAHAHA.

The fire alarm rang while we were at Seoul. LOL. 3/4 of the customers from the restaurant beside us escaped. LOL. Very amusing sight ,indeed. DRAMADRAMA.

I'm hating work. I HATE IT SO MUCH.

I watched my favourite 100% entertainment last night and learnt about "White Valentines" and "Black Valentines". Haiyah, next time then say.

Friends forever, sweety. You were really very adorable. If only...

WANTED

2006-02-15T15:07:00.000+08:00

"You better stay at home today.You know someone killed a person with a gun and is on the run now?"

"Oh, Okayokay."

I tell you, it's very frightening. With a such small population, the probability of being held hostage would be.. 1/100? YAHYAHYAH. I'm not leaving home till the criminal is caught.

I missed my job training this morning. Because, well, I Kbox-ed wid BLACK till 3am last night and I'm totally worn out. And I'm not keen of going bcus I'm not paid to attend the training. =P So, I only set my phone's alarm. And not that killer alarm that will definitely wake me up. So, I woke up at 10am. And slept all the way till... God knows when.

Last night was really insane. We kbox-ed for 6hrs. Singing the same old list of songs. My SHABUSHABU and BLACK's DA SHE TOU.

Primary school gathering. My 3years crush. HAHAHAHA.

I bought myself a new toy and I'm surviving with bread and more bread.

2006-02-13T21:18:00.000+08:00

Now that I've got my pay working as a slave at Xodussy, I've got no idea how to spend it. Okay, Melissa will most likely to ask me to save it. I've gotta treat Black bcus I promised her. I've gotta treat Zikai too, for being such a great tutor teaching me and praying hard for me.

I saw this pretty digital camy I wanna get my hands on. And it's $500. The dealer joked that I could bring it home for 3days to "test" if it's good. Yahyahyah. And he handed me the catalogue. DUMBSHIT.

But if I get this camy, it means no entertainment, no fun, no shopping, no peeptoes, no stripes... I just dont get any of the delights I wanted.

SIGHSIGHSIGH. I'm glad I took up sewing. Now I can keep myself busy sewing with my granny spects on. I tell you, sewing is FUN lar. Bcus I've got God knows how many junk clothes in my wardrobe and I've got to do someting about them. And throwing them away wouldnt be my choice.

I'm very troubled over the SHITarse 12choices LA. VERY TROUBLED.

Valentines

2006-02-13T18:22:00.000+08:00

I'm down with flu and cough. At the same time, I'm losing excessive blood. Sighs.

I've yet to register for my courses because.. I'm not very sure either. Though I've got an idea what my 12choices would be. Hmm.. Tough choice. I just hope that shitarse course would let me in. And I'm hating those who could make it into the JC and chose poly. SHITARSES! That will leave me with those leftover courses.

Two days ago, I learnt sewing with my mama's antique sewing machine. It's very fun. And I'm sewing a jumper for my Kopi.

My mama is talking a lot staring at the dumbarse tv waiting fo her GOGOGO show. Asking me why I never buy FAN-tastic for her to eat. Sighs. Insane. YAWNS.

2006-02-12T00:23:00.000+08:00

I've yet to register for my courses. Shits.

You're mine tonight. But not any other nights.

I sound so MAN

2006-02-11T00:38:00.000+08:00

I dont know what's wrong with me. I "break voice" once again. I guess I talked too much. Screamed too much. Sighs. Why cant my voice be sweet? Why seh? Boy boy ley.

Okay. I must say about Thaipusam. Friends, come Farrer Park Temple see Thaipusam okay? So many policemen. HEHE. Handsome seh. Now the temple is a little noisy. ^%&^%#%$@*^ Wa piang. Then, a bit smelly smelly also. HAHA. Really sia. The smoke smell. Polluted air = Lung cancer. Road Block. HEH. These few days sure alot of people come my place here watch Thaipusam. HEHE. Who want to come? Come lar. This year no CB Eileen pei me. EAT shit la u. Move what house la. MA DE!

I shant go out these few days, except work. Guess what? I've got my pay. HEHE.

I intend to watch Thaipusam tomorrow. With my Kopi. Her first time. Think she'll be so scared by the ahpunehnehs. HAHAS. Timid arse.

Then, I'll watch tv. Sleep. THROW MY BOOKS!! HAHAHA! NONONO. Take to Bras Bersah. Those books are GEMS hor. Dont bear to throw.

12 Choices?

2006-02-10T22:51:00.000+08:00

I'm pretty satisfied about my results. I shant talk about it. I'm just glad that it's all over.

I'm really upset. 4years have passed in a blinkblink.

I AM GONNA...

miss my mates
miss my class
miss the school
Yes, miss my teachers
miss my Ten Years Series
miss my textbooks
miss the canteen
miss DX-The Gila Babi, The Marykate, The TWINS, The Lucy LIU
miss ShaoLing- My punching bag, My beggar sect, My very irritated friend, My lovelaughing atme friend, My movitation
miss MH- My justascrazyasme friend
miss eunice- The gossipQUEEN. HAHA.
miss eda- The angmoh PAI, The molester.
miss melissa- The stressmachine
miss juvena- The anggongsiao
miss kenny- The abuser
I guess I'm gonna miss myself,Beverly, too.

Beverly, poly life means..
NO MORE..
4e3.
screaming in class.
HAHAHAHOHOHOHEHEHE so loudly.
no ROARING.
loithering outside class.
jumping all over.
monkey businesses.

NO MORE EYESORE!! Hurray!! I'm so glad I wouldnt be facing that FATARSE. I'll be missing her. Her stares. Her childish behaviour. Her LJ face. I always dislike her. I dont know why la.

And poly life means..
MORE..
friends.
boys.
new class-mates.
yummy food.
money spent. SHITS.

I'm really so upset. I dont bear to leave my dear friends although they're pretty irritating at times. I'M SO SAD LA.

I'm not nervous, I swear.

2006-02-09T16:31:00.000+08:00

Tonight is JUDGEMENT DAY.

I kept grinning while working yesterday. Chris is the funniest colleague I'll wanna have. He calls me- Belle. As in, Belle-verly. HAHA.

Just when I'm daydreaming of what I should be doing instead of work, Chris snaps his fingers in front of me and says," Belle, Belle. Dont dream huh..HAHAHA."

Okays. I'll blog soon. FCUK SHIT. I havent got my damn pay. YOU KNOW just how broke i am without it??!

Okays. I've gotta get to the salon with my mama. God knows what will happen to my hair.

RUMOURS

2006-02-06T16:11:00.000+08:00

There've been so many rumours regarding the release of O levels results. And it's SCARING ME!!! I think I'm going BONKERS. BonkBonkBonk Bonkers.
Okay. I should get hold of myself.

I've already prepared for the worst. If I'm ever gonna do badly, I'll retake my papers. But on a second thought, I couldnt take that O levels stress again. It's scary. VERY scary. It's haunting me althought O levels has already been over for like 4months?? Seriously, O levels is a nightmare. It was such a relief after I complete each paper.

I'm seriously giving Dentistry course a thought. HAHA. Then perhaps, I can do my own braces. Then I can try different kinds of braces every month. And perhaps, I no longer use a toothbrush and colgate to brush my teeth. I brush my teeth at the dentist EVERYDAY. HAHAHA. Then I can have dentures. HAHA. Then, I can pull out the tooth of the ones i hate most. Then I'll use those yucky-plucked-out teeth as bullets to shoot the arses i dislike, or anyone who irritates me. Yes, I'll do voluntary work. I'll give those ah gongs ah mas a set of dentures each. HAHAHA. I'll make gold teeth for my daddy and mama. I'll pluck out my wisdom tooth and replace it with a 24k gold teeth. BLINGBLING! HAHA.OHOHOH... I cant forget my dog too. I'll have braces on my babybaby Kopi. HA HA HA!

Dear friends, I'll give u a 40% discount for dental check-up. Plus a mould of your teeth for half price. HAHAHA. DENTIST Beverly. HAHAHA. Who gives a damn about being a scientist or doctor. DENTIST! HAHAHA.

I'm so insane. Insane dao....HAHAHA. Funny mah, Black?? Funny dao... HAHA.

I'm meeting BLACK to get her dumb bag in town. And we'll be walking there from our homes. HAHA. Budget. I'll be having a good laughing session with her. HAHAHAAH. Okay, I running late again.

I guessed I've got to mention about my spring cleaning yesterday with my ohprettyhappyyesterday sis & nothingbuttrouble kopi. I had a hard time bathing for her and she dirties herself running around the wet kitchen floor. She's such an arse. Okayokay, I'm running late.

The thought of attending church sessions just dawned on me last night, while I'm was lying on my imagination den. I've got no exact reason why. I guess I've lead life the wrong way. I know that's not me. That's not what i wanted. That explains my unhappiness. Yes, I should be a good girl from now on.

Who needs attention and fame as girlfriends? Nope, not me.

Am I turning 17 this year?

2006-02-03T00:45:00.000+08:00

Can anyone tell me WHY?????!

I guess I'm upset again. Yes, again.

The male colleagues that I've hoped to see so much are... MAJOR DISAPPOINTMENT. I met Alex-the-beer-belly today.

My three male colleagues:

~~Alex~~ DISASTER!!
Chris
Jimmy

I guess I didnt get their name wrong. Two hopes left.

Off-day tmr. Ngee nan poly Openhouse. I'm coming your way. HAHA. Hasbeenprettynice sis said their chicken chop was flabby yummy. Goodies bag. HEHEHEHE. KIASU.

UPSETUPSETUPSETUPSET.

I'm very ~~disappointed~~ DISGUSTED by men's actions. The customers I get to see everyday has shown me the cruel reality in adult life. I'm not growing up. Firm with my stand. Clutch my fists. HA.
Many a times, I would see married(mostly) old men bringing their mistress(es) out shopping. And usually, it's very obvious to spot that these women are mistresses. They choose the most expensive shoes without much consideration. And I hate to serve them because they looked very disgusting, looking so youknowwhat. The look they have got when they managed to cheat those LDKs into buying expensive shoes for them.
Okay. The point here is.. Why these old men rather spend on these loose women than on their wife and kids? I'm very puzzled.
Okay. The point here is actually.. Why loyalty and faithfulness hardly exist in these days?

Fine. No one is gonna have an idea of what I saying. But, I'm just very disappointed about life. And everything else. I need my counsellor right now. I'm being very pessimistic. I need my pills.

I met up with Priscilla today. We've changed. Sometimes, it's really sweet to think about the past. Really very sweet. I wish everything was like before. No hypocrisy. No lies. Nothing like these. Just plain simple and naive.

Maybe I'm upset because I've grown up. I hate this "guessing-true-or-false" game. Ugly truth. Ugly people. Ugly smiles that means nothing but fakeness. UGLYUGLYUGLY.
I really am upset.